Defining Life

“It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.” – Confucius Sometime last year, maybe in August, I had pink eye. It was really really bad. At first, I thought it was allergies. Suddenly, I could barely see out of my right eye. It was so bad that I had a fever of 110 and after going to the ER and I had to make an appointment almost a week later with the eye doctor. He looked in my eye and said, “well Miss White, you have the Godzilla of pink eye.” He gave me a super strong steroid and told me to stay on it for the month but I would have pink eye for about another 3 weeks. The medication would start working immediately but it could come back or jump to my other eye. I was happy to finally have a diagnosis because my dramatic behind was telling everyone that I was going blind. Whats crazy is, a friend of mine, after hearing my diagnosis said, “you’ll be fine. Just continue to use the eye drops as the doctor said. Your eye will start looking better but stick to th

“You can’t fight to stay the same and be dedicated to becoming better.” -Sarah Jakes Roberts I’ve been on a journey of complete and utter transformation. Or at least I thought I was. I’ve wanted to change for a really long time. I knew that my life wasn’t great. I was making bad decisions and ruining every good thing. I’ve been destructive. Nevertheless, I’ve wanted to change. Here’s the problem, I’ve also been fighting to stay the same. Have you ever felt like you had two people inside of you? I know we all have seen the visual of the devil on one shoulder and the angel on the other. It’s usually comical. But have you ever felt the severity of that same fight but only its inside of you? For so long I couldn’t articulate the struggle that’s been happening in my life. But today its clear. Shadowboxing. I’ve been shadowboxing . I’ve been living under my own rules and I’ve been “solely” dedicated to living God’s word. Am I completely psycho? I have to be. I’ve been deceiving my