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What will you do when what you've prayed for is staring you in the face?

“God ordered your steps. All you have to do is take a step.”


Let me tell you about this one time that I got real comfortable and almost passed up on what I had been praying for.


So here I am, finally finished with my undergrad after being tossed around for almost two years after my expected graduation date. Ok, maybe it wasn’t all to blame on the school. Some of it was my fault. My laziness. My comfort. My complacency. OK...more than some. Most. But anyway, thats not important. here’s what is…


Aramark at Catholic University has been a HUGE blessing in my life. When my school closed back in 2012 I got a part time job at Payless and months later, that store closed as well. I had worked for Aramark throughout high school and my first semester in college. When Payless shut it’s doors, Aramark opened theirs. They actually created a position for me. Yes. A blessing from God. Plus, CUA is home for me. I had no issue transitioning. But at the same time, this was a job. No my career. I’d set a goal. ONE YEAR. That’s it. By then, my undergrad would be complete and I would be ready to start my career as a counselor within DCPS.


Fast forward to TWO whole years later...well...it’s finally my last week at Aramark. While I’d love to pour out to y'all what took me so long, that’s not what this blog is about. This one is about how I almost ended up staying here for another year after I was offered a position to work with Special Needs children in a DC school.


Over these last two years, my life has been a rollercoaster. It’s been insane. The depression cycle that I’ve been in took a lot out of me. It literally took God to shake up everything at my job for me to become fed up and make a move to change my life. I was applying for jobs and calling in favors and some more. Randomly, two opportunities came through the next day. When the principal called and let me a voicemail to set up and interview I stared at my phone. Hesitant. Fear swelled inside of me. After the interview I was unsure. Two weeks later I was offered the position. My mother and sister have been so excited and I have been silently second guessing it every other day.


What’s my point? How am I looking my blessing in the face and questioning it? How could I pray for this SPECIFIC job and then turn around and say, “are you sure?”


Now, at this point I’ve accepted the job and I am spending these last three days at Aramark. This place has been great to and for me but it was never my goal to be here long. I told myself that even if I have to take this job with fear in my heart, I would. I’ll get over it. But what I cannot do it walk away from this gift that God has given me.


Moral of the story, don’t you dare quote the promises of God then ask Him if they’re real.


“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me…” Philippians 4:13


Comments

  1. UnknownMarch 16, 2015 at 1:25 PM

    Can I tell you that you are speaking from MY OWN heart hunnie!? lol

    Let Him take you higher and higher. Like you said, "Life is a roller coaster". The higher you are elevated, the more nervous you become with the fear of falling but when you have reached that peak, you fell a little more at ease but not totally confident that you're safe yet. Then it happens!!! The most invigorating, satisfying feeling in the world! You conquered that fear and rode it out!

    Congratulations on the new CAREER!!! May your days be more than blessed in the position God made just for you!

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  2. ShawntikaReneeMarch 16, 2015 at 1:43 PM

    Girrrrrrrrrrl! AMEN!

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  3. UnknownMarch 17, 2015 at 10:22 AM

    Yep!! Love it!!!

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