“I met this boy when I was six years old and what I loved
most he had so much soul…”
So, I know Common was talking about Hip Hop, but this is my
real life! I met… John (we’ll call him John) at… (John Elementary) when I was
six. He was everything to me. He had pcurly hair and a beautiful smile. His skin
was a soft caramel color and he played basketball. How could I not love him? I
mean, I knew in that moment that we were going to be together forever. I told
all my friends that he was mine. Knowing my mom was not having it, I still
pretended. But I was a geek. I mean, like glasses, buck teeth, awkward
dressing, horrible hair, and a weird shape. He didn’t love me back then.
Well…apparently, awkward girls grow up to be pretty girls.
With locs down my back, a crooked smile and full lips, and still rocking
glasses, I ran into that boy…now man…and he all but chased me through the
church. I have never felt more pursued in my entire adult life.
It just so happens that the moment he began to chase me, my
career began to take off. We barely talked outside of texting. I was either at
work or getting reading for work. I didn’t have to brain power or mental
capacity to give him any of my time. Yet, if I were on Spring break or Summer
break, he was my focus. I don’t think that was enough for him. Which is
understandable. No one wants to be second, especially to work.
However, I am 27 years old. While I feel old, I am pretty
freaking young and I have my whole life for a man to be my center. Yet, I still
find myself wondering whether or not I passed up on my good thing. I think I
could have loved him. I think he could have made me happy. I think it could
have been real.
So I am just wondering, is love more important than your
career? Do you give up on your dreams to see if something could work? I don’t
know. Maybe I went about this wrong. I need advice this time… what would you
have done? How can you find balance? Is that even possible?
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ReplyDeleteI personally feel that you can have both. The person God has for you won't be a distraction, they will be an asset. The right person takes you towards your goals and dreams, sometimes even faster. Making time for someone you truly desire doesn't mean you're choosing them over your career. We all need balance. I choose both. I say, let love find you and be open when it comes. Men (Real men) love for a woman to have other passions and pursuits. These are often the things that make them fall so deeply in love with their woman. Live AND love Queen!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Daria. I will add that it is also important to look for an equal. Most people look for that, which is why it is important to be yourself and go for what you want in life. Know yourself and love yourself first. More than likely thats the mindset you were in when your school crush pursued you. He saw your essence, where any decent man would see that. Continue in that vein, another one will be along soon.
ReplyDeleteIs love more important than your career? My answer to that is no. How can you find balance, and is that even possible? Yes it is possible. How one finds balance, that is a deeper mystery in and of itself. To attempt an answer, I would suggest that he or she continue to live life the way they've been going about it & allow their significant other to come their way.
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